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    Tuesday, May 8th, 2007
    9:33 pm
    Love Language
    I feel loved when...

    The Five Love Languages

    My Primary Love Languages are probably Quality Time and Physical Touch

    <th colspan="2">My Detailed Results:</th>
    Quality Time: 10
    Physical Touch: 10
    Acts of Service: 5
    Words of Affirmation: 5
    Receiving Gifts: 0

    About this quiz

    Unhappiness in relationships is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. It can be helpful to know what language you speak and what language those around you speak.

    Tag 3 people so they can find out what their love language is.

    Take the Quiz!
    Check out the Book



    Current Mood: calm
    Wednesday, January 17th, 2007
    9:36 pm
    Burrrr
    I am completely sick of this cold weather. I have a natural abillity to stay warm, but I still don't like it being cold. I understand its winter. Maybe I would not mind so much if the heater in my crane would work when its cold, not just when it gets above 40 degrees. Oh well.

    Current Mood: bored
    Current Music: Blue October
    Monday, December 25th, 2006
    6:44 pm
    Happiest time of year, really?
    Well here it is, Christmas again. Here I am feeling the most depressed that I have in several weeks, maybe even months. There is really no reason for it, I just can't seem to find anything around me at the moment to make me happy. I have spent most of the day here alone, my family went to eat at a truckstop, and I just couldn't make myself join them for that. Not that I am above eating at a truckstop, but really for Christmas dinner I think not. The weekend was ok, not the greatest time I've had in a while. I spent friday night suporting my new girlfriend as she spent most of the night being sick. I wish she had not gotten sick, but I am glad that I could be there to at least give her my suport, though I wish I could have done more. I feel I am missing her a lot today, as she spends time with her family 6 hours away, but I hope she has a good time.

    I have so many feelings swiming around in my head these days, I don't know how to deal with it all, where to start sorting it out. Its as if I have emotions from two seperate times crashing together and getting all mixed up. I want to be sure that the feelings I express are the ones I truly feel in this time, and not let emotions from the past take control of the present. For all that I feel that I am different from what I call the typical male, there are times I feel that I fail misserably at proving it, and I hate that about myself. I guess its just something I have to work through though, we are who we are. Oh well, perhaps I should just find something to do to try putting my mind on something else for a while. I know this will pass, I just wish I wasn't alone tonight. thats it for now.

    Current Mood: depressed
    Current Music: none
    Monday, December 18th, 2006
    4:52 pm
    Yet another poem
    Commitment

    Before we met, you and I were halves unjoined except
    in the wide rivers of our minds. We were each other's
    Distant shore, the opposite wings of birds, the other half
    of a shell that keeps the clam from falling out.
    We did not know each other then, did not know our determination
    to keep alive the cry of one riverbank to the other.
    We were apart, yet connected in our ignorance of each other,
    like two apples sharing a common tree. Remember?


    I knew you existed long before you understood my desire
    to join my loneliness to your. Our paths
    Collided long enough for our indecision to be swallowed up
    by the greater needs of love. When you came to me,
    The sun surged toward the earth and the moon escaped from darkness
    to bless the union of two spirits so alike that your
    Pain became my discomfort. In the hour when I stood naked,
    You were there to play the drum of life for us.


    Beloved partner, keeper of my heart's odd secrets, clothed
    in summer blossoms so the icy hand of winter
    Never touches us, I thank your patience. Our joining
    is likea tree to earth, a cloud to sky, and even more;
    We are the reason the world can laugh on its battlefields
    and rise from the ashes of its selfishness to hear me say,
    In this time, this place, this way, I loved you best of all.

    by Nancy Wood

    Current Mood: cheerful
    Current Music: I still Remember; Blackmore's Night
    12:41 pm

    O little town of Bethlehem,
    How still we see thee lie.
    Above thy deep and dreamless Sphinx
    The silent stars go by.

    O Little Town Of Bethlehem
    from the Christmas Song Generator.

    Get your own song :
    Sunday, December 10th, 2006
    11:39 pm
    happy days
    I think that it is ammazing how doing nothing can feel so good when your with the right person. who would think that lounging around could fill you with such happiness, only because you get to spend time with someone really special. I think I have found that someone, she brings a smile just by being there. I hope that I can do the same for her, and we can share many happy days together.

    Current Mood: cheerful
    Current Music: Lord of tthe rings
    Sunday, December 3rd, 2006
    11:13 pm
    ok, one more
    Emily Brontë (1818–1848)

    Stars

    Ah! why, because the dazzling sun
    Restored our earth to joy
    Have you departed, every one,
    And left a desert sky?

    All through the night, your glorious eyes
    Were gazing down in mine,
    And with a full heart's thankful sighs
    I blessed that watch divine!

    I was at peace, and drank your beams
    As they were life to me
    And revelled in my changeful dreams
    Like petrel on the sea.

    Thought followed thought—star followed star
    Through boundless regions on,
    While one sweet influence, near and far,
    Thrilled through and proved us one.

    Why did the morning dawn to break
    So great, so pure a spell,
    And scorch with fire the tranquil cheek
    Where your cool radiance fell?

    Blood-red he rose, and arrow-straight
    His fierce beams struck my brow:
    The soul of Nature sprang elate,
    But mine sank sad and low!

    My lids closed down—yet through their veil
    I saw him blazing still;
    And steep in gold the misty dale
    And flash upon the hill.

    I turned me to the pillow then
    To call back Night, and see
    Your worlds of solemn light, again
    Throb with my heart and me!

    It would not do—the pillow glowed
    And glowed both roof and floor,
    And birds sang loudly in the wood,
    And fresh winds shook the door.

    The curtains waved, the wakened flies
    Were murmuring round my room,
    Imprisoned there, till I should rise
    And give them leave to roam.

    O Stars and Dreams and Gentle Night;
    O Night and Stars return!
    And hide me from the hostile light
    That does not warm, but burn—

    That drains the blood of suffering men;
    Drinks tears, instead of dew:
    Let me sleep through his blinding reign,
    And only wake with you!

    Current Mood: calm
    10:53 pm
    its a night for poems
    Eliza Acton

    I Love Thee

    I love thee, as I love the calm
    Of sweet, star-lighted hours!
    I love thee, as I love the balm
    Of early jes'mine flow'rs.

    I love thee, as I love the last
    Rich smile of fading day,
    Which lingereth, like the look we cast,
    On rapture pass'd away.

    I love thee as I love the tone
    Of some soft-breathing flute
    Whose soul is wak'd for me alone,
    When all beside is mute.

    I love thee as I love the first
    Young violet of the spring;
    Or the pale lily, April-nurs'd,
    To scented blossoming.

    I love thee, as I love the full,
    Clear gushings of the song,
    Which lonely—sad—and beautiful—
    At night-fall floats along,

    Pour'd by the bul-bul forth to greet
    The hours of rest and dew;
    When melody and moonlight meet
    To blend their charm, and hue.

    I love thee, as the glad bird loves
    The freedom of its wing,
    On which delightedly it moves
    In wildest wandering.

    I love thee as I love the swell,
    And hush, of some low strain,
    Which bringeth, by its gentle spell,
    The past to life again.

    Such is the feeling which from thee
    Nought earthly can allure:
    'Tis ever link'd to all I see
    Of gifted—high—and pure!

    Current Mood: calm
    10:46 pm
    poem
    Elizabeth Akers Allen

    At Last

    At last, when all the summer shine
    That warmed life's early hours is past,
    Your loving fingers seek for mine
    And hold them close—at last—at last!
    Not oft the robin comes to build
    Its nest upon the leafless bough
    By autumn robbed, by winter chilled,—
    But you, dear heart, you love me now.

    Though there are shadows on my brow
    And furrows on my cheek, in truth,—
    The marks where Time's remorseless plough
    Broke up the blooming sward of Youth,—
    Though fled is every girlish grace
    Might win or hold a lover's vow,
    Despite my sad and faded face,
    And darkened heart, you love me now!

    I count no more my wasted tears;
    They left no echo of their fall;
    I mourn no more my lonesome years;
    This blessed hour atones for all.
    I fear not all that Time or Fate
    May bring to burden heart or brow,—
    Strong in the love that came so late,
    Our souls shall keep it always now!

    Current Mood: calm
    Current Music: superman
    12:53 pm
    soreness
    I woke up this morning feeling very sore. I pretty much knew it would happen though, after helping some people move all day yesterday. It was a long day, that could have gone much smoother with a little bit of proper planning. However I was glad to have been able to help them, even if I spent much of the day wanting to pull my hair out. I am pretty sure I will be much more organized about it when it comes time for me to move. I'm going to go take some advil and lounge some more now.

    Current Mood: tired
    Thursday, November 30th, 2006
    5:43 pm
    Stupid Monkey
    Sometimes I just really hate my bank. I can understand them wanting to close early due to the weather and all, not that its that bad. However, when they decide to close at 3, and I get there at 3:05, and they just stared at me through the security gate without saying anything. It makes me mad. Its not that I had to have money, or even deposit my check tonight, just the way they acted when I got there, how about a little curtisy at least. Oh well, nothing that I can do about it now.

    Current Mood: aggravated
    Current Music: none
    Wednesday, November 29th, 2006
    11:09 pm
    is this really me
    The Boy Next Door
    Random Gentle Love Dreamer (RGLDm)

    Kind, yearning, playful, you are The Boy Next Door. You're looking for real Love, a lot like girls do. It might not be manly, but it's sweet.

    We think the next three years will be very exciting and fruitful ones for you. Your spontaneous, creative side makes you a charming date, and we think you have a horny side just waiting to shine. Or glisten, rather. You enter new relationships unusually hopeful, and the first moments are especially glorious. If you've had some things not work out before, so what.

    Your exact opposite:
    The 5-Night Stand

    Deliberate Brutal Sex Master
    On paper, most girls would name the Boy Next Door as their ideal mate. In the real world, however, you're often passed over for more dangerous or masculine men. You're the typical "nice guy:" without just a touch of cockiness, you're doomed with girls. A shoulder to cry on? Okay, sure. But never a penis to hold.

    More than any other type, Boys Next Door evolve as they get older. As we said, many find true love, but some fail miserably in the search. These tarnished few grow up to be The Men Next Door, who are creepy as hell, offering backrubs to kids and what not.


    ALWAYS AVOID: The Nymph

    CONSIDER: The Maid of Honor, The Peach


    Link: The 32-Type Dating Test by OkCupid - Free Online Dating.


    Current Mood: cold
    Current Music: daily show
    9:23 pm
    just one of those days
    Wow looky here two days in a row, not that anyone reads this to know. Anyway today was one of those days that just basicly sucks. In reality it was not that bad, but in my mind it was. First off I had to get up early, again just like everyday this week. I don't like being up early. I get to work and take my crane to the job site, the people there are not organized or even close to being ready for me to be there. So, I have to stand around for half an hour waiting for them to move stuff so I can set up to do anything. Then I sat around for another 2 hours waiting for them to get ready. I was not happy being there anyway, it is a truss job, I hate setting trusses with a passion. Having to wait on them to get thier act together did not help my mood. Eventually we did get some progress done, but not enough that we finished the job. So, unless the ice and cold cancles it, I get to get up early once again tomorrow and go back. Some days it just doesn't pay to get out of bed.

    Oh, almost forgot to add to my pleasant day I get home tonight to find the storm has knocked out the electricity, how nice. Thankfuly it was only off for about an hour. I hope things go better tomorrow, I know there are people out there who will tell me this is all because of my second approaching, but I don't care, I hate days like this. Thats all the ranting I have for tonight.

    Current Mood: bitchy
    Current Music: Godsmack - Vodoo
    Tuesday, November 28th, 2006
    7:07 pm
    I am bad at this
    So I just about forgot I even had this. I am so bad at posting regularly to these things, mainly because nothing ever really happens in my life, at least nothing worth telling. Maybe I will start updating this more. Thats all for now.

    Current Mood: bored
    Current Music: none
    Sunday, April 9th, 2006
    8:43 pm
    Courage to make a difference
    Here is an inspiring story I read. What would the world be like if we all tryed a little harder to make a difference. All it takes is a little work and a little love.
    Blessings to all.



    */The Courage to Make a Difference/*

    As she stood in front of her 5th grade class on the very first day of
    school, she told the children an untruth. Like most teachers, she looked
    at her students and said that she loved them all the same. However, that
    was impossible, because there in the front row, slumped in his seat, was
    a little boy named

    Teddy Stoddard.

    Mrs. Thompson had watched Teddy the year before and noticed that he did
    not play well with the other children, that his clothes were messy and
    that he constantly needed a bath.

    In addition, Teddy could be unpleasant. It got to the point where Mrs.
    Thompson would actually take delight in marking his papers with a broad
    red pen, making bold X's and then putting a big "F" at the top of his
    papers. At the school where Mrs. Thompson taught, she was required to
    review each child's past records and she put Teddy's off until last.
    However, when she reviewed his file, she was in for a surprise.

    Teddy's first grade teacher wrote, "Teddy is a bright child with a ready
    laugh. He does his work neatly and has good manners.... he is a joy to
    be around.."

    His second grade teacher wrote, "Teddy is an excellent student, well
    liked by his classmates, but he is troubled because his mother has a
    terminal illness and life at home must be a struggle."

    His third grade teacher wrote, "His mother's death has been hard on him.
    He tries to do his best, but his father doesn't show much interest and
    his home life will soon affect him if some steps aren't taken."

    Teddy's fourth grade teacher wrote, "Teddy is withdrawn and doesn't show
    much interest in school. He doesn't have many friends and he sometimes
    sleeps in class."

    By now, Mrs. Thompson realized the problem and she was ashamed of
    herself. She felt even worse when her students brought her Christmas
    presents, wrapped in beautiful ribbons and bright paper, except for
    Teddy's. His present was clumsily wrapped in the heavy, brown paper that
    he got from a grocery bag.

    Mrs. Thompson took pains to open it in the middle of the other presents.
    Some of the children started to laugh when she found a rhinestone
    bracelet with some of the stones missing, and a bottle that was
    one-quarter full of perfume.. But she stifled the children's laughter
    when she exclaimed how pretty the bracelet was, putting it on, and
    dabbing some of the perfume on her wrist. Teddy Stoddard stayed after
    school that day just long enough to say, "Mrs. Thompson, today you
    smelled just like my Mom used to." After the children left, she cried
    for at least an hour.

    On that very day, she quit teaching reading, writing and arithmetic.
    Instead, she began to teach children. Mrs. Thompson paid particular
    attention to Teddy. As she worked with him, his mind seemed to come
    alive. The more she encouraged him, the faster he responded. By the end
    of the year, Teddy had become one of the smartest children in the class
    and, despite her lie that she would love all the children the same,
    Teddy became one of her "teacher's pets."

    A year later, she found a note under her door, from Teddy, telling her
    that she was still the best teacher he ever had in his whole life.

    Six years went by before she got another note from Teddy. He then wrote
    that he had finished high school, third in his class, and she was still
    the best teacher he ever had in life.

    Four years after that, she got another letter, saying that while things
    had been tough at times, he'd stayed in school, had stuck with it, and
    would soon graduate from college with the highest of honors. He assured
    Mrs. Thompson that she was still the best and favorite teacher he had
    ever had in his whole life.

    Then four more years passed and yet another letter came. This time he
    explained that after he got his bachelor's degree, he decided to go a
    little further. The letter explained that she was still the best and
    favorite teacher he ever had. But now his name was a little longer....

    The letter was signed, Theodore F. Stoddard, MD.

    The story does not end there, however. You see, there was yet another
    letter that Spring. Teddy said he had met this girl and was going to be
    married. He explained that his father had died a couple of years ago and
    he was wondering if Mrs. Thompson might agree to sit at the wedding in
    the place that was usually reserved for the mother of the groom.

    Of course, Mrs. Thompson did. And guess what? She wore that bracelet,
    the one with several rhinestones missing. Moreover, she made sure she
    was wearing the perfume that Teddy remembered his mother wearing on
    their last Christmas together.

    They hugged each other, and Dr. Stoddard whispered in Mrs. Thompson's
    ear, "Thank you Mrs. Thompson for believing in me. Thank you so much for
    making me feel important and showing me that I could make a difference."

    Mrs. Thompson, with tears in her eyes, whispered back. She said, "Teddy,
    you have it all wrong. You were the one who taught me that I could make
    a difference. I didn't know how to teach until I met you! "

    (For those of you who don't know, Teddy Stoddard is the Dr. at Iowa
    Methodist in Des Moines that has the Stoddard Cancer Wing.)

    Try to make a difference in someone's life… today? tomorrow? It doesn’t
    matter when, just "do it" when the opportunity arises. Random acts of
    kindness, I think they call it?

    "Believe in Angels, then return the favor."

    ~ By Roberta West
    Sunday, January 15th, 2006
    10:57 am
    The Whole of Me
    by Elowen GreyWolf

    I know not what path I follow
    It is the one deep within
    It calls to be in the dark of the night
    It sooths me in the brightness of the day

    When I reach for it - to hold it and give it a name
    It slips away, elusive as the misty rain
    I want to name it so that I can explain myself
    So, that when someone says what do you do
    I can say I am this to you

    However, when I try to label it
    It fades....

    The time I spend trying to see what it is
    I miss being what I am
    For my path is me

    It is the heart that beats within
    It is the love that leaps and out of control spins
    It is being one with the storm
    It is standing barefoot around the cauldron in the snow
    It is dancing around the May Pole in the moon's bright light
    It is laying on the trampoline, surrounded by grandchildren

    Picking out with them the point of light I will be - when I die

    It is holding hands with my husband
    It is watching young ones cast their first circle
    And knowing in that moment in time - the circle will never end
    Knowing that my path is forever with the Lord and Lady
    That They are part of the whole of me

    So what path am I
    All and none, the one perfect for me



    Blessed Be!

    Current Mood: hopeful
    Sunday, December 4th, 2005
    6:29 pm
    Initiation
    Well, its official. As of yesterday morning I am an initiate of Amtrad. I am overjoyed to be a part of such a wonderful group of people. It truly is a family of the heart. I am looking forward to the upcoming year, to growing, and learning more together. As I continue down the path, I am in awe to the power the Goddess has to guide us to where we need to be. Thats the latest for now. Blessings.

    Current Mood: peaceful
    Saturday, November 12th, 2005
    6:43 pm
    First Time
    Well, this is my first attempt at one of these. I credit a good friend for getting me to start it. I guess to start a little about myself. I am a student of The American Tradition of the Goddess, hopefully soon to initiate. I love to read, mainly fiction, Sci-fi and fantasy. I also love to watch movies with friends and family. I love to do anything in nature, which is why I feel I had to have a job where I am outside. I just couldn't see myself in a cubicle all day. Anyone who knows me will say that I am quite possibly the shyest person you would ever meet, at least untill I get to know you. This is something that I have been working on changing about myself. Thats the basic me, I know not much info, but maybe I will tell you more later.

    Lately life has become a roller coaster of emotion. I had one of the most fun filled weekends in a long time, only to follow with the grief of the death of a family member days later. But this is the secret of life, when you get thrown an obstacle, find a way around it and get on with life. So, I am dealing with the loss, and going on with life. I find it difficult at times, but I have the strength of the Goddess to help me. Thats all I have for now.

    Current Mood: morose
    Current Music: Pleading my love
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